This Time Around

by Michelle Lewis

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Caroline 03:01
Caroline You turn a million heads out on the street But somehow you convinced yourself you never could compete And so you take to bed each man that crumbles at your feet And lying naked next to them you cry yourself to sleep And then you let just once or twice turn into several dozen times Caroline Caroline You use your smile as your best disguise You lock yourself in bathroom stalls and cut your inner thighs You say that it’s the only place that healing wounds can hide You say it takes the pain away you have inside your mind What started out as once or twice soon became a hundred times Caroline Don’t you know that evening’s coming after you? How many lives you got until you’re through? Caroline You are your mother’s daughter, Caroline. But you were always so much smarter ‘til you started your decline You closed up all your windows so the sun no longer shines You lose yourself on percocets washed down with gulps of wine But if anyone should ask you always tell them that you’re fine I never met a girl so sweet, so beautiful, so blind How could you let a few bad months turn into your lifetime? Caroline. -Michelle Lewis ©2001
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Well you crept up on me like grey clouds on a blue sky And you showered me with love and then you said goodbye And though you’ve been out of my sight for quite sometime Takes more than time and space to get you out of my mind So excuse me if I stumble when we meet It’s just that when you’re close to me my knees go weak And if I could have one wish though bittersweet I’d ask for just one day in San Francisco Bay But I know not what to do with all the love that you bring I’m just a modern Juliet with no lark to sing ‘Cause morning can’t come for you when you already have gone And I can’t keep playing a part that for me is all wrong So forgive me if I fumble on the words that I must speak Just let me bite my tongue before I’m in too deep And I can’t promise years or months or weeks But I’d settle for one day in San Francisco Bay And I’m torn between two different seas Asking who I love more you or me But it’s not a question of the love I have for you It’s a matter of regretting things I did not do And I know I can’t make sense of all that still remains unclear But something’s calling me that no one else can hear So excuse me if I stumble when we meet Just give me one last step before I fall at your feet ‘Cause there ain’t no mountain low or valley steep that we can’t climb today in San Francisco Bay I’ll always find my way back to San Francisco Bay
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Well I’ve been dreaming about you I’ve been thinking of the one I thought I knew But life for you has been torture And you ran out without leaving a single clue You were never one for conversation Always quiet always a little withdrawn And you tiptoed through the morning And disappeared with the moon at the break of dawn Well you never bothered to say goodbye So I never thought that I should have to cry For you I never cried for you Well I first felt reality When I came home wanting to watch TV But I guess that belonged to you And like your smile you took it away from me Guess now I can walk around naked ‘Cause I got more room in the closet for my clothes And I don’t answer to no one Truth be told I’m glad to see you go Well you never bothered to say goodbye So I never thought that I should have to cry For you I never cried for you I forget more of your face each day Loss has turned to anger And that’s where it will stay But remember it’s you that made things this way ‘Cause you never bothered to say goodbye So I never thought that I should have to cry For you And you never told me you would disappear So I never thought that I should shed a tear For you I never cried for you I never cried for you.
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Midnight 04:55
You were only nineteen And a bad breakup left you with no self-esteem You asked him to light up your thin nicotine And his hands were rough but impeccably clean Time passes by You can’t think of any excuse as to why You’d stay with a man when you just want to fly But he says that without you he would rather die So stay by his side Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight No one else is gonna change your world Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight It’s your choice girl The night finally came He’s drunk and depressed and it’s you that he blames You get up to go but you soon are restrained By two hands that are grabbing your thin fragile frame You suddenly freeze And harder and harder his fingers will squeeze Digging his nails in your arms through your sleeves And he throws you against a cold wall while he pleads, “Please don’t leave” Well ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight No one else can save you from his world Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight It’s up to you girl Well you try to forgive and pretend That the same thing won’t happen again But it won’t be too long ‘til you’ve found That this time you’ve landed face down on the ground You try to ignore While for eight blocks he calls you a slut and a whore Looking down at the clothes and the skin that he tore Wondering, “What have I done that he would do this for?” You can no longer tell If you’re still on this earth or have gone straight to hell Your reflection has ceased to resemble yourself ‘Cause you’ve been under some kind of horrible spell and the clock strikes twelve Well ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight No one else is gonna change your world Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight Except for you girl Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight No one else is gonna change your world Ain’t nobody gonna save you from Midnight So get outta there girl. - Michelle Lewis 2002
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Got no car Ain’t got no money I’ve been walking in circles ‘round this town Looked to a bar For milk and honey But emptiness in a glass was all I found ‘Cause I’ve been Searching for Something To get me out of the slump I’m in I’ve been Searching for Something new Something new I won’t hide Under the covers From anyone that can make me scream and shout I’ll spend the night With three different lovers ‘Cause I won’t know who I like ‘til I try them out ‘Cause I’ve been Searching for Something To get me out of the slump I’m in I’ve been Searching for Something new Somehting new I’ve been so blue What can I do I’ll take a chance ‘Cause I’ve been wondering What kind of trouble I can get myself into I’ll go to France Or maybe London And get to Dublin before the year is through Cause I’ve been Searching for Something To get me out of the slump ‘m in I’ve been Searching for Something To get me out of the slump I’m in I’ve been Searching for Something new Something new. - Michelle Lewis © 2002
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Someday 04:15
Come to me now hands soaking wet For this will be a night that you won’t soon forget And don’t look for me in the morning light ‘Cause I was thinking that the fish might need some company tonight And just hold me now I am sinking under you Hold me now ‘cause there’s nothing left to do And if you ask the wrong questions at the wrong time You might not get the answers that you were hoping to find And I was thinking to myself on this cold winter’s night I hope that I’m happy on the day that I die Hold me down I am floating away Hold be down I think it’s better this way We can’t forget the bad It’s just the way the world is And that includes you and me baby And the damage you did And I can’t let it go it’s just the person I am And I was hoping you would wait for me baby and I was wonderin’ if you can just Hold me back I am slipping away Hold me close I’m gonna miss you Someday Yes Someday Yes Someday One of these days Yes Someday One of these days.
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Night falls dark in the city Where the people have no names And the rats are running in circles around All the bums asking for spare change And they say I’ve got a great view From my room on the 5th floor But it’s nothing like the view I used to have Cause I can’t see you anymore So greetings now From the virgin hotel I just called to say I’ve been missing you like hell And I watch the cars race by my window As they beep and speed out of sight And it always seems the loudest sirens must be heard When I’m trying to sleep at night And there are some nice people here I’ve even met a saint or three And I can’t complain about everything There’s just someplace I’d rather be So hello from all Of my sisters and me I just called to say That I miss you horribly And they’re trying to make something outta me Something I just don’t want to be And they say “Stop making that loud music, girl We’re turning in for the night” And it takes everything I’ve got inside of me To smile and say “alright” And sometimes I feel so all alone I just want to find a place that I call home So in case I haven’t Made it perfectly clear I just wanted to mention again How I wish How I wish How I wish You were here. -Michelle Lewis ©1999
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And you said to me, “Why don’t you stop hangin’ round with your shadow?” And I said to you, “Because he’s the only one I can trust now.” And why don’t you care Care about the way I feel Well that’s ok It never was such a very big deal And you said you were lost And just wanted to be found Now look at the mess Just look at the Mess You Made now Then you said to me, “It’s not my fault, I didn’t mean to.” And I said to you, “I’ve used that line way before you.” And how silly of me To think to think to think To think I had the upper hand Well I should have known A little shit like you would cease to understand And you were just a little boy A little boy with bright eyes But I had already guessed For me there was no disguise Oh so now I see I see you were just using me And you were just a little girl A little girl fucked in the head For you ever to think That I would forget what you did And you said you were lost And just wanted to be found Now look, look, look at this mess Just look at the Mess You Made now.
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Could Be You 03:09
Don’t want to know what time the clock shows it might say the sun is trying to break through Don’t answer the phone I don’t want to hear the voice on the line it might be you Could Be You Could Be You Don’t want to know which way the wind blows it might bring a breeze that breaks me in two Don’t answer the door I don’t want to fear the face that’s outside it might be you Could Be You Could Be You And I lie to comply with your questions Obsessions That horrify the bed where I lie And I try not to cry when I think of the strange love between you and I I wonder, why? Can’t stay awake Can’t fall asleep Can’t close my eyes Still can not see Don’t want to hear or speak your name Just say goodbye everything’s changed Don’t want to know what time the clock shows It might say the sun is trying to break through.
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Had You Once 06:33
You’ve entered my mind a hundred times since you’ve been gone And though I’ve been through my doubts I can’t figure out just where I must have gone wrong And why you did go I’ll never know or quite understand But love you I could, much better, I would If you’d give me one more chance And friends, they say, “Don’t bother girl, he’s not coming back again” but I refuse to swallow the fact that this is the end Cause if I Had You Once I can get you back again If I Had You Once I can get you back again But I don’t think if I ran to your gate they’d let me in So could you meet me halfway between the clouds And heaven Well some drunken fool played the part of a ticking time bomb And he didn’t think enough to stop his car ‘til he hit you head on And they say that it was painless ‘cause you died right on impact I can’t believe you couldn’t feel a blow to your body like that And I think this is all incredibly unfair To watch you fly away and leave me to crawl down here But if I Had You Once I can get you back again If I Had You Once I can get you back again But I seem to be lost and lacking all sense of direction So could you please tell me the best way to get to heaven And I’m wishing now for one last chance to say things I did not But goodbye never did cross my mind ‘cause I always thought That if I Had You Once I could get you back again If I Had You Once I could get you back again If I Had You Once I will get you back my friend Cause I lost you once I will not lose you again And I know you’re busy up there working for the man But come and see me if your boss gives you some time off from heaven.

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The debut album by Michelle Lewis. Bonus official music video for the title track, This Time Around.

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released September 24, 2004

This Time Around
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Mike Rivard - bass
Mark Bowden - electric guitars
Bill Wurts - drums
Stephen Webber - high string guitar, electric guitar
Zoux - piano, accordion

Caroline
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Matt Harmon - cello

San Francisco Bay
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar

Never Cried for You
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic and electric guitars
Mike Rivard - bass
Bill Wurts - drums
Mark Bowden - electric guitar
Dan Brantigan - trumpet

Midnight
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Shannon Chwialkowski - bass
Bill Wurts - drums
Mark Bowden - acoustic and electric guitars
Jim Kelly - electric guitar

Searching for Something
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Mike Rivard - bass
Bill Wurts - drums
Mark Bowden - electric guitars
Zoux - hammond organ, percussion

Someday
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Zoux - piano
Mark Bowden - electric guitars
Mike Rivard - bass
Bill Wurts - drums
Matt Harmon - cello

Mess You Made
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Mike Rivard - bass
Mark Bowden - electric guitar
Zoux - hammond organ, percussion
Bill Wurts - drums

Fifth Floor Song
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar

Could Be You
Michelle Lewis - vocals, piano
Matt Harmon - cello
Andrew Blickenderfer - bass
Sarina Suno - violin

Had You Once
Michelle Lewis - vocals, acoustic guitar
Zoux - piano
Andrew Blickenderfer - bass
Sarina Suno - violin
Mark Petrie - percussion

Produced by ZOUX and Michelle Lewis
Recorded by ZOUX and Sarah Bearse
Mixed by Mark Wessel
Recorded and Mixed within Sherwood Forest, Bedford, MA
Mastered by Emily Lazar at The Lodge, New York, NY
String Advisor: Mark Petrie
Photography by Liz Linder
Photo Assistant: Andrea Fischman
Stylist: Kelly McDermott
CD Design: Deborah Wieder

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Michelle Lewis Boston, Massachusetts

Michelle writes intensely visual songs, rich with melodic texture and emotional depth, and she performs with an unmistakable swagger. Too refined to call folk and too personal to call pop, her music surprises listeners who think they know what to expect from a singer/songwriter, and those who never expected to like one. ... more

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